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Abby had her surgery last Friday (the 4th) and was recovering. My parents flew out Sunday morning for their trip to California.
(I am tired beyond belief so this will be short)

Day 1: Monday, Abby was still recovering and was beginning to have a lot of pain. She wasn't eating or drinking. Eventually...she became dehydrated. I had a final Monday night so after that I came home and we ended up going to the ER. (she started throwing up earlier in the day and had a few times). She got and IV and got liquids then we came home around midnight.

Day 2: Tuesday, luckly I didn't have any finals that day. We just spent it at home trying to recover and get Abby to eat and drink. I was also studying and writing a few papers for school due Wednesday. Abby had her follow up appointment and he said all was healing well.

Day 3: Wednesday, with all that was happening with Abby I felt bad sending her to a babysitter so her Dad came and stayed with her while I finished my finals. I left about 12:30 and was done by 4. Done with School!!!!! WoooHooo!! I think we stayed home to celebrate.

Day 4: Thursday, things were getting better. She was eating and drinking better.

Day 5: Friday. We were becoming stir crazy and wanted to get out of the house. We ran a few errands then went and saw The Frog Princess, which we LOVED, then went to dinner.

Since Wednesday Abby's ears have also been hurting (normal because the nerves are connected to throat) so she has been having to have her pain medicine every four hours or her ears and throat get bad.

Friday night around midnight it was time for her pain dose so I was getting it ready and heard her up, so I figured the pain woke her up and she was coming to get me. I begin to walk up the stairs and hear her throw up and I was not happy about that. I did not want her to get dehydrated again. I felt so bad. I turn the stairs and see Kaydee (our puppy) licking blood off the carpet and I walk into my room and see Abby knelt over the garbage with BLOOD everywhere!!! It was bright red and there was so much!! And it kept coming. She was vomiting blood! I FREAKED OUT!!!!! I ran to her and helped her finish then jumped in the car and spead to the ER. We walked right in and she went right back. She had blood all over her chin and her neck and her pj's. Long story short, we got admitted and were there till last night. They are thinking it was a scab (a big one) that came off. so. much. blood. It was one of the scariest moments of my life. While we were in the ER she fell back asleep and I sat there, Georgia Dalby and Morgan came and sat with me. My parents were gone. Scariest moment ever. She had blood everywhere! Oh my. Finally we went up to her room around 4am and got to sleep till about 7am when they came for blood work. The doctor came around 8am and said that there was no fresh blood but wanted to keep her to make sure she would eat and drink. We got to come home around 6:30 pm Saturday.

What a week. Finals. 2 ER visits and a hospital stay. All by ourselves.

I'm tired and glad I'm done with school. Abby has been out of school for I'm not sure how long. This has been on and off since mid October. I'm ready for her to feel better.

Mothers should never have to do this!!

Abby had her tonsillectomy today. Going in it was good! We were both calm. We got back there and she got weighed in and measured...

5 Years 9 Months
47lbs
45 1/2 inches

The nurse asked if I wanted her to have a sedative to help with the IV. Since the hospital and being sick so much she is not a fan of shots! (she has had quite a few lately!) so I asked Abby if she was nervous at all and she said yes and plus it was early so we went ahead and had a cherry sedative. Gave her a few minutes for that to start working then came back to get her hooked up to the IV. The nurse gave her a numbing shot then injected her IV. Took vitals and got hooked up on all her machines. After the nurse left, Grandma was able to come back and sit with us. Abby got SO goofy! With being tired and the sedative she was so silly!! We joked, laughed read a few books then they came to get her. I gave her a kiss and she was off. I waited in the waiting room and worked on some homework.

About 40 minutes later....the Doctor came out and gave me a report and everything went fine!
5 minutes after the Doctor left the nurse came and said I could go see her now....that's when it

ALL fell apart!...



I walked back there and a nurse was holding her with blankets and she still had her IV in (they wanted it in until right when we left, to have access if needed) so I came in and sat down and they handed her to me. She was SO so so so SAD and in SO much pain!! She was still really groggy from being under. She had a little blood out of her nose and the nurse said that's normal, since they take the adenoids out their nose. All Abby wanted to do was go home. She was still really out of it and could not sit still and just kept saying she wanted to go home. I tried to hold her still for a little while I talked to the nurse. She kept crying and she sounded SO bad! You could just tell she was in SO much pain. She sounded like she had a huge lump in her throat!! The nurse was talking about, if she throws up blood and stuff like that, its normal. Abby keeps squirming and crying then finally......I lost it!!! I felt SO sick! I asked the nurse if they had something to throw up in and it was coming!! I got so faint!!! I just felt the life sucked out of me!! I became white as a ghost and nauseous and dizzy!! The nurse ran and got the other nurse that was helping. One held Abby and the other layed the chair back and got a compress for me and I had to have some Sprite to. I was laying there with my eyes closed trying SO hard to stay there (mentally, not passing out!!!) I got so cold and sweaty! Finally the nurse had to go get oxygen for me! I was SO embarrassed!!! I felt like SUCH A HORRIBLE MOTHER! Here I am, supposed to be taking care of my child who is in so much pain and I freak out!!! It. was. awful. Finally after about 20 minutes I got composure and was ok. THEN....I started crying!!! These nurses must think I'm some sort of loony, unfit, horrible Mother!!! They did keep reassuring me this wasn't the first time and that they both have kids and know what it's like. NO mother should have to see their child in SO much pain!! NEVER!!!

So....finally I got it under control and was able to drive home. Got Abby home and got her pain medicine and shes doing MUCH better now. I still have a hard time dealing with it.
These past few months have been SO hard with her being sick so much. All the doctors visits and shots, and IVs and blood work and pain....I'm just glad it will all be over soon! I know this was the right thing to do and it will pass, but it is by far one of the hardest things I've had to do!

I did take a few pictures before, but they were with my phone, I think I can get them on the computer, but I'm not sure, I'll try.

Ooh La La!

He can play the piano and sing to me anytime!

I LOVE movies!

There are SO many GOOD movies out right now and SO many more coming in December!! I LOVE IT!

MY past month!

What a month!! MAN! With my Mom then Abby it has been a emotional roller coaster!! Well, luckily for me, I never got sick! BUT I did miss a lot of school while I was with Abby. And by a lot, that's an understatement! Thankfully, my professors have been very understanding (for the most part!). So that pretty much sums up my past month! School, homework, papers, tests, taking care of Abby, more homework a few more tests and a lot more school.
While Abby was in the hospital I luckily only missed one test that I can make up at the end of the semester which is in two weeks!
I am currently working on three papers that are due this week. Then this Friday Abby gets her tonsils out! I'm happy and sad about that. Happy because I know it will make her feel SO much better and sad because I know it hurts! She gets that done Friday, then on Sunday, my parents fly out to California for a week! THEN..Monday I have a final, Wednesday I have a final and Thursday is my make up test! This means I have to find a babysitter for these days but luckily it's only for about an hour. I just go and take my test, but the bad thing is I'm not sure how Abby is going to feel with just having her tonsils out. We'll see how that goes. I'm nervous about that, but praying it will work out.
That's about the jist of my life right now. Trying to make it through the next two weeks then it's Christmas Break!! I'M READY!! There have recently been some other things come into the mix of my life (first post) that I will be concerned about, but I have faith! The Lord is by my side!
I think that's about it! Just school! I have no social life let alone dating life. So nothing there. (I can't think of someone wanting to date me anyways!)
So, I probably won't post till schools out (DECEMBER 10TH-LAST TEST) but I will if something happens!!! Hope everyone is doing WONDERFULLY and had a great Thanksgiving!! I have SO much to be thankful for!! haha-and I'm thankful for all of it!

Let's see some updates!

So, I believe where I left off was when Abby was sick the FIRST time. (side note, my mom is doing just fine if not better!!!)
The next week after my Mom in the hospital and Abby in the ER, started good. The weekend before Abby was feeling better and everything seemed fine. Then on Tuesday night she started with a small fever again. All I could give her was Tylenol because she was going in for her surgery (tonsils removed) that Friday. But, by Wednesday it was back up in the 103-104's and she started throwing up again. I called the doctor right away and we went in Wednesday morning to see the nurse practitioner. On the way Abby had thrown up 4 times in that hour. Right before we left, in the car, in the waiting room then in the back room. I think it was an intern doctor or something that came in first to see her. Then she went and got the nurse practitioner and she checked her out then she said she thought that her actual doctor saw her. So, her doctor (who I love!) came in and checked her out and said that she felt she needed to go ahead and go to the hospital and get some liquids and find out what was going on. So, after throwing up another time in the parking lot, we were on our way to the hospital.
Once we got there we had to go and get checked in. All this time Abby was wearing a mask and the lady at registration asked if I would wear a mask so I did and our escort up to our room had a mask. We were walking through the hospital and everyone was looking at Abby and she got so many "ohhh, poor thing" she looked awful! She was pale as a ghost and had huge black circles under her eyes. It was so sad. We get up to our room and she was in isolation since they still didn't know what she had. There was a table right outside her door with gloves, masks, and gowns with two signs saying it was isolation and to beware! The nurses came in wearing all the gear and tried to get her set up but the masks keep fogging up so the said to just forget it! It was sweet. They had to do some blood work and get her IV set up. No fun. She was so strong! Such a trooper! I think I cried more than she did!! I hated seeing her in pain. She was so dehydrated the nurses had a hard time finding a vein in her hand, they said she was so dry they couldn't find anything so they finally had to do it in her arm. We got her changed and all the tests done and were just able to rest for a few minutes then the x-ray lady came in and wanted an x-ray of her chest to make sure it was clear. After that we were mostly able to rest. They gave her something for her tummy and her fever and we just waited. Wednesday was horrible! She didn't go to bed till midnight and once she would fall asleep her IV machine would start beeping! Loudly!! That would wake her up and it was hard for her to fall back asleep. I finally got her to sleep around four then the lab people came in at six! After they left she fell back to sleep around seven but her doctor came in to check on her at 7:30! Needless to say, there was not much sleeping that night. We were hoping to be able to go home on Thursday, but we weren't that lucky! We were there till Friday. Once she was on her third bag of fluids she was feeling much better! LONG story short, we were able to go home Friday and boy was it nice to go home. We still aren't sure what it was that she had. The first day she was there her white blood count was 34,000 (normal is between 6,000-9,000) then on Thursday it was down to 20,000 then on Friday it was 10,000 (close enough for us to come home).
I did take some pictures but these are when she was feeling better. On Friday morning when they came to do work they just did a finger prick so that's what the finger is (shes not flippin you off)
Overall, it was a long 3 days! Life didn't stop while she was there (that's the next post)! She is doing fine now. She is scheduled to have her tonsils out this Friday December 4th!! I am ready for that!! I'm ready for no more sickness!!











(in most of them she is watching T.V., that's all there was to do. They had over 300 kid's movies!! It was SO cool! She just picked the one she wanted and told them the number!!)
(Thursday night I had her take a shower, I thought it would help her feel better, that's why her hair is wet) (she had her own room with a really nice bathroom!)
I will talk more about my experience in the next post.


We tried to get her to name her IV, but I don't think she ever did.
She is back to her normal, happy self now!!!

I know...it's been a while.

I really have a lot to update on but I'm going to do it in separate posts, and this isn't going to be one. This is more my thoughts/journal entry. After this I will do updates so don't feel the need to read this one if you don't want to.

Why is Satan so strong? Or better yet, why do we allow him to have so much power? I guess it's us that lets him in and gives him strength. If I had one true wish, it would honestly be that everyone was happy and all their troubles would be gone. I try to make that wish come true for as many people as I can. I would give all I have to take their troubles away from them. Today I am finding out that my shoulder's are not as strong as I thought.
My one and only brother. "My brotha from anotha motha" as we like to say, is struggling with the thing that is most dear, his family. Marriage is hard. There is no way around that. It is a full time job. There are highs and lows but you can not let the lows over see the highs. I wish with all I had that I could just go out there and make things all better for them. I wish they could feel the burning testimony I have that families are sealed together! Families are...everything! This is why we exist is for families.
I kinda thought this post would be easy but it's not looking that way. I thought all the emotions and feelings and thoughts I have racing through my mind would come out. They aren't.
I love my family. All of them. I would do anything for them. If my shoulders are not strong enough-I will make them stronger. I have faith in my Father in Heaven and in my family.