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Abby had her surgery last Friday (the 4th) and was recovering. My parents flew out Sunday morning for their trip to California.
(I am tired beyond belief so this will be short)

Day 1: Monday, Abby was still recovering and was beginning to have a lot of pain. She wasn't eating or drinking. Eventually...she became dehydrated. I had a final Monday night so after that I came home and we ended up going to the ER. (she started throwing up earlier in the day and had a few times). She got and IV and got liquids then we came home around midnight.

Day 2: Tuesday, luckly I didn't have any finals that day. We just spent it at home trying to recover and get Abby to eat and drink. I was also studying and writing a few papers for school due Wednesday. Abby had her follow up appointment and he said all was healing well.

Day 3: Wednesday, with all that was happening with Abby I felt bad sending her to a babysitter so her Dad came and stayed with her while I finished my finals. I left about 12:30 and was done by 4. Done with School!!!!! WoooHooo!! I think we stayed home to celebrate.

Day 4: Thursday, things were getting better. She was eating and drinking better.

Day 5: Friday. We were becoming stir crazy and wanted to get out of the house. We ran a few errands then went and saw The Frog Princess, which we LOVED, then went to dinner.

Since Wednesday Abby's ears have also been hurting (normal because the nerves are connected to throat) so she has been having to have her pain medicine every four hours or her ears and throat get bad.

Friday night around midnight it was time for her pain dose so I was getting it ready and heard her up, so I figured the pain woke her up and she was coming to get me. I begin to walk up the stairs and hear her throw up and I was not happy about that. I did not want her to get dehydrated again. I felt so bad. I turn the stairs and see Kaydee (our puppy) licking blood off the carpet and I walk into my room and see Abby knelt over the garbage with BLOOD everywhere!!! It was bright red and there was so much!! And it kept coming. She was vomiting blood! I FREAKED OUT!!!!! I ran to her and helped her finish then jumped in the car and spead to the ER. We walked right in and she went right back. She had blood all over her chin and her neck and her pj's. Long story short, we got admitted and were there till last night. They are thinking it was a scab (a big one) that came off. so. much. blood. It was one of the scariest moments of my life. While we were in the ER she fell back asleep and I sat there, Georgia Dalby and Morgan came and sat with me. My parents were gone. Scariest moment ever. She had blood everywhere! Oh my. Finally we went up to her room around 4am and got to sleep till about 7am when they came for blood work. The doctor came around 8am and said that there was no fresh blood but wanted to keep her to make sure she would eat and drink. We got to come home around 6:30 pm Saturday.

What a week. Finals. 2 ER visits and a hospital stay. All by ourselves.

I'm tired and glad I'm done with school. Abby has been out of school for I'm not sure how long. This has been on and off since mid October. I'm ready for her to feel better.

Mothers should never have to do this!!

Abby had her tonsillectomy today. Going in it was good! We were both calm. We got back there and she got weighed in and measured...

5 Years 9 Months
47lbs
45 1/2 inches

The nurse asked if I wanted her to have a sedative to help with the IV. Since the hospital and being sick so much she is not a fan of shots! (she has had quite a few lately!) so I asked Abby if she was nervous at all and she said yes and plus it was early so we went ahead and had a cherry sedative. Gave her a few minutes for that to start working then came back to get her hooked up to the IV. The nurse gave her a numbing shot then injected her IV. Took vitals and got hooked up on all her machines. After the nurse left, Grandma was able to come back and sit with us. Abby got SO goofy! With being tired and the sedative she was so silly!! We joked, laughed read a few books then they came to get her. I gave her a kiss and she was off. I waited in the waiting room and worked on some homework.

About 40 minutes later....the Doctor came out and gave me a report and everything went fine!
5 minutes after the Doctor left the nurse came and said I could go see her now....that's when it

ALL fell apart!...



I walked back there and a nurse was holding her with blankets and she still had her IV in (they wanted it in until right when we left, to have access if needed) so I came in and sat down and they handed her to me. She was SO so so so SAD and in SO much pain!! She was still really groggy from being under. She had a little blood out of her nose and the nurse said that's normal, since they take the adenoids out their nose. All Abby wanted to do was go home. She was still really out of it and could not sit still and just kept saying she wanted to go home. I tried to hold her still for a little while I talked to the nurse. She kept crying and she sounded SO bad! You could just tell she was in SO much pain. She sounded like she had a huge lump in her throat!! The nurse was talking about, if she throws up blood and stuff like that, its normal. Abby keeps squirming and crying then finally......I lost it!!! I felt SO sick! I asked the nurse if they had something to throw up in and it was coming!! I got so faint!!! I just felt the life sucked out of me!! I became white as a ghost and nauseous and dizzy!! The nurse ran and got the other nurse that was helping. One held Abby and the other layed the chair back and got a compress for me and I had to have some Sprite to. I was laying there with my eyes closed trying SO hard to stay there (mentally, not passing out!!!) I got so cold and sweaty! Finally the nurse had to go get oxygen for me! I was SO embarrassed!!! I felt like SUCH A HORRIBLE MOTHER! Here I am, supposed to be taking care of my child who is in so much pain and I freak out!!! It. was. awful. Finally after about 20 minutes I got composure and was ok. THEN....I started crying!!! These nurses must think I'm some sort of loony, unfit, horrible Mother!!! They did keep reassuring me this wasn't the first time and that they both have kids and know what it's like. NO mother should have to see their child in SO much pain!! NEVER!!!

So....finally I got it under control and was able to drive home. Got Abby home and got her pain medicine and shes doing MUCH better now. I still have a hard time dealing with it.
These past few months have been SO hard with her being sick so much. All the doctors visits and shots, and IVs and blood work and pain....I'm just glad it will all be over soon! I know this was the right thing to do and it will pass, but it is by far one of the hardest things I've had to do!

I did take a few pictures before, but they were with my phone, I think I can get them on the computer, but I'm not sure, I'll try.

Ooh La La!

He can play the piano and sing to me anytime!